Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Little "Z" Man!








Happy Birthday Aimee!!!



Our little girl just turned 18 yesterday! Happy birthday Aimee! We love you!

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Friday, July 25, 2008

Stressed

Yesterday was one of the worse days I have had in a very long time.

I'm usually a very motivated person which I try and look at what is positive or what I can try and do to make something better, but for whatever reason I woke up yesterday and was very depressed. I think it actually started the night before when I was putting Abbie's birthday video on here and course I had to watch all the other video I have on her as well. So... I think I started missing her terribly.

Anyways, like I said, I woke up feeling very sad and as soon as I got to work I sat at my desk, listened to some of my favorite Christian music and just sat there for a few minutes and prayed. I asked to the lord to please give me the strength to get through the day with positive thoughts about getting my Abbie home.

So, around 10:00 I decided to get the calling card out and call the CNA in Guatemala. I was hoping the guy I talk to at the CNA might of found something out about getting abandonment cases through. As usual he was in a meeting. No problem. We called again like they told us about 30 minutes later and guess what...still in the meeting.

Bummed out but still okay, I went ahead, took some deep breaths and dove into work as usual. About 30 minutes later I was on the phone with my corporate office and let's just say I was bawling by the end of our phone call. I wont go in to what was said but the water works started. I wasn't getting in trouble but my feelings were highly hurt.

Since I was the only Manager on duty that day I could not run out of the building and had to suck it up. I wiped my tears away, took a couple more deep breaths and tried to dive back into work mode. Well, about an hour after this happened, a customer in the store slipped and fell pretty bad and I had to call EMS for her. As I was standing there waiting with her...I wanted to start crying again. I was at my breaking point.

Again some deep breaths worked,I sucked it up and I went to my office to check my work e-mail. The president of the company e-mailed me about my dissatisfaction about the company and basically told me to suck it up as well.

Okay, Im feeling really lousy now.

Now, it's about 4:00 and I'm wrapping things up for work. I decided to try and call Gautemala again and low and behold...he's there! To make a long story short...he made me very nervous on this conversation. He basically told me that he is now wondering why our case is taking so long and since it is...there could be problems. This is not what I needed to hear at the moment.

To make a long story short, I made it through the day somehow with no more tears. I woke this morning, took my shower and again started praying that this day be better and I can that I can make it through with positive thoughts. I grabbed my cup of coffee, opened my e-mail and as you can already see....I got surprise pictures of sweet Abbie-girl. My awesome new friend Krystal asked one of her friends to do this for me when she was on her visit trip. It was a complete surprise!!! Thank you Krystal!!! This means more than you know right now. It is exactly what I needed!

I CAN and WILL make it through this day. The water works have returned but that's okay. I have new pictures of my Abigail!!!!





Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Abigail's Birthday video

Here's some video of the kids at the Hogar singing Happy Birthday to Abbie.

Monday, July 21, 2008

Random Photos


Playing in the rain water


Check out Isaiah's teeth! I think they are gorgeous! I know Im crazy!
Believe it or not...He loves to brush them and constantly asks for me to brush them for him!


Look at Isaiah's boo boo on his nose. He fell on the brick wall along the fire place. At first I thought he broke his nose and would have two black eyes but nothing came from it. It doesn't look as bad as the fall was.


Yes, he is topless alot but it's so flippin hot here!!!


Daddy bought a new TV for the den. Don't worry, Daddy was right there when I took this picture.

Friday, July 18, 2008

No go on the hearing again

Wednesday was suppose to be Abbie's abandonment hearing and once again... it did not happen. To be honest I was really didn't think it would happen since I was told they were going to try and squeeze it in.

I am being told that they have rescheduled for August 18th. I was reassured that PGN has completed their investigation, the police reports are ready showing Abbie is not listed as a missing child and all the newspaper publications have been done trying to find any family of Abbie's.

So...if all goes well It looks like the CNA (Central Authority) will have 10 days to find a Guatemalan family for Abbie and if there are no takers...which there shouldn't be...I can probably continue with her adoption. Nothing is for sure right now but.... our lawyer seems to think that since she registered our case with the CNA before the deadline in February, the judge will rule that if no Guat family wants her, the family who started the adoption may complete as originally attended.

PLEASE pray that all this works out. My life has not been normal for the last two years. I don't write about it often but my heart is breaking and Im a wreck inside. Every waking moment I'm thinking of Abbie. My life will not be the same without her. If it was not for her, I would not have little Isaiah. I LOVE HER MORE THAN LIFE!!!!

PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE pray for us!!!

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Isaiah in action!!!

Now I'm getting the hang of You Tube!!! Be prepared for lots of videos!!! (don't forget to turn off the music=))



This is how Isaiah is all the time. Non stop running around!

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Abbie in action!!!

FINALLY, I got some video on You Tube! It took forever!!! (Before you play it go to the bottom and turn off the music.)

After getting back from Guatemala I figured out what she was singing...the Barney song!!!




By the way, right now she (Abbie)only knows her name as Mishel so...that's what I called her when I was done there.

Saturday, July 12, 2008

ready for the ride!

Last night we took Isaiah on his first bike ride and he loved every minute of it!!!
The helmet looks huge but it made for babies up to 18 months.
He's just my little peanut!


Wednesday, July 9, 2008

The CNA

I'm sorry I left some people hangin about what is happening with the CNA and what I had learned while in Guatemala. So here's a short version and let me tell you the adoption of Abigail is like living a soap opera. So much drama. Don't tell, Don't ask, you name it!!

First off I have been dealing with a VERY nice man at the CNA. Turns out... no one else thinks the same of him! No one except adoptive parents! Anyways...In order for him to do anything with our adoption he wants to review our case file. There are two problems. First off, I have been told that if the CNA finds out who our lawyer is....it may hurt us right now since our lawyer is so unliked. The second thing is that our lawyer does not want anything to do with him right now! Cant win for losing here!

All I really can do at this point is hope that the group of parents who are stuck just like us, waiting for abandonments, can get some help or are allowed to keep a "link" with our children. This is defiantly in the works. Im still keeping in contact with my "friend" at the CNA. It cant hurt keeping him on my side!

Here is still the problem right now and what is worrying me....

Abbie's final abandonment case should be fairly soon. After the judge issues her COA (certificate of abandonment) the CNA has about 3 weeks to find a suitable Guatemalan family that would want to adopt her. "IF" there are no families that want her, our lawyer thinks we will be able to continue with her adoption. Under the new laws or old laws, I dont know! The good thing is Abbie is already two and most people are looking for newborn babies to adopt. The bad thing is, our lawyer says that since Abbie does not look like the typical Guatemalan...it may attract parents to consider her. Make sense?

There is alot of stuff I had to leave out. I always have something in the works and don't worry..I will never give up!!! I'm constantly thinking about her cute smile, her singing her Barney song and the way she dances. I love that girl more than anything!

Monday, July 7, 2008

New toy!

Tonight we headed to K-Mart just to get a new curtain rod and we left $100 poorer!

Tomorrow we will put the battery in after it charges and he can drive all around.

Friday, July 4, 2008

Happy Fourth of July!!!


Ready for the party!



Hay rides are fun!



Lovin on Doofy!!!

Thursday, July 3, 2008

Abbie on her birthday

Here are a few pictures of Abbie in her birthday dress. My one goal this weekend is to figure out how to put video on here. I have some footage of all the kids singing Happy Birthday to Abbie on Tuesday

She loved going up and down in the elevator


Every morning she would eat a whole piece of toast, at least one egg, a piece of ham or sausage and at least a handful of grapes.





These are some of my last pictures of Abbie. I wanted so much to see a smile on her face but it never happened.





This was taken right before all the kids came in to sing Happy birthday. She had this blank look on her face the whole time.
I want her HOME!